I was really overwhelmed by your response to my cry for help post on finding balance last week. It was so encouraging to hear from those of you that left comments and emails for me, I’m glad to know I’m not alone and that we can relate! So, I wanted to talk to you about being open or guarded in relationships, because without going into too much detail just yet, I could use the venting. I’ve been kind of a mess behind the scenes over here in case you haven’t noticed my out-of-the norm absence much yet..
I’ll go ahead and be the first to say that I haven’t had the best of fortune with people close to me lately. I’m quickly realizing that when I’m not doing well I tend to just shut down and guard my heart. I have no issues with talking about a problem or circumstance, but really getting the dirty truth behind my reasons or feelings for something seems to totally escape me. It normally ends in clamming up to keep the temporary peace rather than solving the problem or being uncandidly honest.
In some ways it seems really logical to try and spare feelings, but at the end of the day it’s really just masking the problem, right? At some point you’ll have to be honest to set yourself free a bit, but how and when is the best way is always the question, isn’t it?
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