Forgive me in advance if this post ends up being more like rambling than anything else, that seems to just be my mind in general this week. I’m sure you’ve noticed it’s been a bit quieter on the blog lately than it usually is, and that’s because sometimes I just can’t keep up. I feel like a lot of times readers (and even fellow makers and writers) forget that real people actually create the content you see here. I’m not overly special or exceptionally energized, I don’t have all of my ducks in a row all of the time, or always drink through a striped straw from a confetti dusted table (shocking, I know).
Instead, this past week (among many others before) has been pretty hard on me. I lost two loved ones unexpectedly, and I just haven’t really been “in it” if you know what I mean. I live a thousand miles from home, I don’t have a storehouse of money to be able to come and go as I would like to, and I have a whole business resting on my shoulders that sits and waits if I’m away. I’m not telling you all of this for condolences, though I appreciate the ones you’ve sent, I just want to say it out loud so that I don’t feel guilty for not keeping up with the blogging Joneses or for pretending like I’m making cakes and home decor DIY’s when I’m not.
Obviously I want to be successful and have a thriving company for all of the hard work I’ve put into it, but I mean, let’s be real here. I could whip up a recipe or slap some washi tape on something to post and call it day, but I want to be authentic about what I do and when I do it. I want to be compassionate and relatable, not so caught up in numbers and “keeping up” that the good and bad moments in life pass me up. After all, it’s the times that are behind the pretty objects that make us who we are, whether we fall or fly from them. This isn’t to say I’m giving up on deadlines or skipping out on you anytime soon, I just figured these things were worth mentioning before jumping back into the usual flow and pretending like I’m invincible when I’m not.
Big hugs to all of you, and I’ll fill you in on upcoming things tomorrow. xo
Image via Lilly Pulitzer, design by Sugar & Cloth